where, oh, where...again

Where have I been? Again? Same old story...sick. First a hospital stay with pneumonia which took forever to recover from. Then just as I was beginning to feel better, I caught a cold from J which settled in my throat and moved into my ears. Two ear infections resulted. I've nearly finished my run of meds, but still can't hear. I must say, as difficult as it is to communicate with others, I am enjoying this quiet world. For now...I do want my hearing back.

While I go to the doctor when I have to, I feel there is a deeper cause for all physical ailments. Trying to figure out the causes of my many sicknesses, I've turned to my favorite book for such matters - Louise Hay's Heal Your Body. A truly wonderful little book I highly recommend. I won't bore you with the specifics of each of my health challenges, but it is very interesting to note the recurring commonalities of not feeling safe, of not feeling like I am heard, of suppressing my creativity, and of not taking care of myself. Based on my findings, and with the aid of Louise's book, I've created six simple daily affirmations to help heal my body and my soul.

I am safe.
I joyously release the past.
I love and approve of myself.
I hear and speak with love.
I express my creativity.
I create my life.

I'll let you know if the affirmations make a difference.

spirit horse

In the lexicon of symbols, horses usually mean healing. I've always believed if horses are healers, white horses are super healers. There was a very special white horse in my life - actually she was a flea-bitten grey, but that's close enough for me. She wasn't my horse, but one of my sister's three horses. Her name was Witaka. She passed away a few years ago from malignant tumors all over her fair skin. I believe Witaka was a healer, but not so powerful a healer that she knew how to get rid of all she absorbed from the people around her and the tumors were the result. Whether I am right or wrong really doesn't matter. What matters is how lucky I was to know her and how much she brought to my life. She had a troubled life. Not in terms of being cared for, she was greatly loved and my sister is an excellent horsewoman. She just didn't seem comfortable in her horse body and horse life. I always felt a special affinity with her. Maybe because I've never felt completely comfortable in my human body or human life.

The photo of Witaka's eye began my photography career. It is the photo that first touched my soul. It was the first photo of mine that was more than just a photo. I have sold more of her photos than all others combined. Her photos are always the ones that people are first drawn to. She still speaks, still heals.

I've posted this photo before, but as far as I'm concerned it can never be seen too often. This is the photo that is the loadstone of all my photos that have come since...

Witaka Eye

Thank you, beautiful Witaka. I miss your presence. You will always live in my heart.

water prayer

From Dr. Masaru Emoto, Messenger of Water:

"Let's send our thoughts of love and gratitude to all water in the nuclear plants in Fukushima"

Day and Time:
March 31st, 2011 (Thursday)
12:00 noon in each time zone

 The water of Fukushima Nuclear Plant, we are sorry to make you suffer. 

Please forgive us.  We thank you, and we love you.

The water of Fukushima Nuclear Plant, we are sorry to make you suffer.

Please forgive us. We thank you, and we love you.

The water of Fukushima Nuclear Plant, we are sorry to make you suffer.

Please forgive us. We thank you, and we love you.

Dr. Masaru Emoto Peace Project here